How much ever I hide
It keeps haunting me
Now-a-days I act very smart ignoring it,
I keep telling myself I’m strong,
I’m not weak anymore,
Yes, I could hold for quite long,
But, not very long as I expect,
From the same old pounding heart,
And gasping breath…
I badly want to rewind my story,
Just six years back,
And pause there forever…
I wish I still get a call
To ask me whether am I ok,
Whether I had my dinner!
I wish I still can hold the tender hand,
And continue those night walks,
I wish I still can listen to the songs he sang,
And keep dreaming my future with him…
But he abandoned me in the darkness,
With no scope of light!
I am still groping for a hand,
To pull me to the light,
How could it has been so many years now?
The sad part is he doesn’t even know
He is my first love!
When he is happily married and is living far away,
How could I even tell him ‘I miss him’?
I know the truth – the love is no more!
But, why do I search him in every man I see?
The more I search the more I’m disappointed,
I am not able to find him,
In past six years,
Some days I act I am alright,
I am happy alone,
But some days (like today)
I couldn’t hold back my tears…
How much ever I cry my eyes out,
I scream my heart out,
Once lost is lost!